i don't know exactly why i want this baby out now. part of it is i just want to spend every moment with my mom when she gets here (and if the baby doesn't come today, that's not going to happen), which is selfish of me, and i really need to get over it...i need to be here when she arrives so i can take her through the kitchen and teach her how to use the stove and microwave. that is, if the baby doesn't come today. and sasha was two weeks early. that made me expect this one early, too. i know that if this baby comes early then that might mean a 'visit' from my in-laws, and i don't want that to happen. what to do, what to do?!
mom is scheduled to arrive on monday evening. if the baby is born today, i will go home on tuesday. but yoshi is working this weekend--overnight. i'm afraid that if i have this baby before the weekend, my in-laws (or worse, my MIL) will be 'invited' over to take care of hiro and sasha. and i will be in the clinic and unable to prevent it. even if i don't go into labor before the weekend, i'm afraid they'll be 'invited' over just in case i do over the weekend. i mean, someone will have to take me to the clinic and watch the kids.
'please baby, if you're coming, do it today or tomorrow, or wait for monday! please!'
oh sure, there's the extreme uncomfortable-ness of late pregnancy (38w4d, thank you very much), the contractions, the pressure, the squirming baby, the heartburn, constipation, even some nausea. i just want to get it over with. and i'm looking forward to breastfeeding (though i know i'll probably get tired of it by six months). i just want to sit down and cry. enough already, let's get it on! but...i need patience. i need to enjoy this time. sasha is growing more confident with her walking. hiro actually goes to the toilet before production (though that doesn't always mean he actually goes in the toilet, poor guy). the weather has drastically changed (and is pleasant, for however long that will last. i hate autumn. tease.)
oh, and completely unrelated: yesterday i made split-pea soup in the slow cooker, but didn't add enough water. it was delicious, but paste. we liked it, but it's weird to eat soup paste....
January 22, 2025
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This part is so hard. Every day brings a different plan. Natsuki was two weeks late so imagine doing this for a whole month! It was crazy. My mother was here, everything was ready, Chikara was on stand-by and... nothing. After three days of induced labor, my mother was actually surprised when we called from the hospital to let her know that Natsuki had been born.
But, in the end, everything worked out just fine and then I had another interesting story to add to the collection!
Hang in there!
(hi this is my first comment but I've been reading you for a while!)
Never having had my own children yet i can only imagine how frustrating it might be to feel like well, your body has been taken over by another human being. I guess you have to just wait til baby-chan decides to come out at his/her pace but it would be convient to fit it into a schedule right.
I just wanted to say that I love the video clips that you've posted you have really beautiful children who seem, for lack of a better word, so genki and alive!
I can't wait to read about your life with all three children!! Best of luck
ChocoSarah
Right on for your mom coming! I bet you'll be totally happy to see her! : )
Sending plenty of good wishes to you! And easy labor wishes and vibes to you as well! : )
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