i'm tired of shouting. i'm tired of the shouting, the yelling, the piercing screaming, the taking of toys away from each other. i'm tired of the trying to pick out the baby's eyes, the long smooches on the baby's nose, the 'nuzzling' that forces the bouncy chair to nearly touch the floor. i'm tired of the waking up the baby, especially with the nuzzling. i'm tired of saying, 'too much love, too much love!!' i'm tired of the crumbs. i'm tired of sweeping, bent over like a little old lady. i'm tired of feeding, of nursing, of throwing away so much rice. i'm tired of watching the same DVD for the fifth time today, which we saw five times yesterday. i'm tired of hearing, 'NO!' i'm tired of poopy diapers, especially when the producer knows how to use the toilet. i'm tired of babies waking in the night and crying (i'm not talking about tomo here).

i'm tired of over-reactions. i'm tired of mistakes and then trying to get what i want in a foreign language. i'm tired of noise noise noise when i'm just trying to get something for dinner.

i'm tired of flab. i'm tired of being tired.

i need a nap.