haven't done much today. i did get some time to myself so i went to joyfull and read a book for two hours. then it was off to recycle, then the shops for special meat (for yakiniku) and then home again. it's so hot these days, but i love it! just wish i was about 100 pounds lighter so i could wear a bikini all the time! LOL
maybe it was pretty obvious to all of you anyway, but this last period really brought me down. i mean, serious depression. i wonder if it's time to seek professional help? i don't even know where to begin. last month i was pretty blue, but this time it was bleak, like stay in bed in my pajamas all day, bleak. *sigh* i feel much better today. i guess i should take my B vitamins every day. any other vitamins that will make me feel better?
tommy and sasha are going through stages which are truly testing me and my patience. it's very difficult these days. and they shriek a lot just to get their way. and sometimes, at the end of the day, hiro loses it and cries a lot, too. it's easy to see how helpful it is to send hiro and sasha to school! but i do love spending time with them. i want to cuddle them up right now (but they're watching anpanman *shudders*) and shower them with kisses. my little babies.
next week we'll be heading out to GW's house. i hope! i'm really looking forward to it, so fingers crossed that everyone stays healthy! and i'm planning on taking lots of pictures, to look forward to that, please.
well, enough blather from me. have a great weekend!
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My sister started to get so emotional during her periods that her husband affectionately called her "Crazy Hannah". She started birth control pills and it's been much better. I've been thinking about doing the same (not for crazy) just to have some control. Lately my period starts at the most inopportune times.
Take care of yourself!
I am feeling loads better today and I was by far the worst off in the family so Tuesday should be no worries :D
Tuesday will be a bit chaotic but I think all the kids can tire themselves out enough to be in bed at a reasonable time for us to still have some night left to have a few shakers, wines and beers and catch up.
There must be some good drugs you can get for period time??
Birth control pills do sound like a good idea. I was just starting to get glum on your behalf as it may be difficult to find a doctor who takes you seriously, women our age so often get told to shut up and go home! But that's an angle that could work. I wonder if the new ones that let you skip 6 months of periods are available here? Something tells me probably not...
time to start introducing the kids to movies YOU like! Then you can pile onto the sofa with them, it's fun!
i don't know that getting the pill in japan would work. although i have been assured that i can get the same dosage (of hormones) here as back home, that has not been my experience. the pill just might make it worse....plus the expense just makes it difficult. *sigh*
it's not pain that makes me blue, it's the hormones that bring me down. i have never been as depressed as i was last week. it was really bad.
I remember 8 years ago, I asked my doctor in Tokyo for a prescription for post-partum depression, and he told me he was unable to write one, and he told me that if I felt any worse he would have me treated in a mental hospital as an in-patient! He said that was the only option, it was that or nothing. It almost sounded like a threat, come to think of it.
But as I'm sure you know, it's widly inconsistent here, and there are good stories as well as bad. I have a Japanese friend, with national health insurance, who looked around and found a Japanese doctor who accepted her Japanese insurance and was able to prescribe her antidepressants, on her terms. She said she felt in control of her treatment (not as if her doctor was telling her what to do, as they sometimes do, too often).
Anyway, despite the fact that your life sounds basically okay, you seem to have a lot of legitimate reasons to feel depressed and overwhelmed. You don't ever get much of a break, you have so little time for yourself, and you don't have many outlets. Lovely female hormones don't help in the best of times, and in the worst of times, they can turn a bad day into an unspeakably horrible day.
Exercise always helps me, whenever I feel myself getting sucked into a black pit of despair, but it doesn't sound as if you have the free time to do it so often.
So....I hope you just try everything you can, and that sooner or later, I hope you find something that makes you feel better.
One day at a time!
i would seek help. Hang in there and Im glad this was a good day for you!
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