for the past week or so, there have been thunderstorms every afternoon. this year, it scares hiro and sasha. it's the first time. i have been surprised up until now, that they didn't even seem to notice, but now it scares them so much. it also seems odd to have a thunderstorm *every* afternoon. i think it's because we haven't had any typhoons around here lately.

with their fear comes an overwhelming need to be with me. it's starting to make me resentful. they even need me until they fall completely asleep, especially sasha. if i didn't need that time to do the things i couldn't do while they were awake, maybe it wouldn't bother me so much. but i get so sleepy lying down with them that i don't get much done. or, i stay up too late and spend the next day sleepy and cranky. *sigh* i don't know what to do, how to enjoy this time or how to get anything done.