i found that i have jealous tendencies when i was in junior high. not exactly romantic in nature, because i was jealous of my best friend's new best friend. actually, i lost that best friend, because i wasn't cool enough, but the new friend had cool friends and well, i just didn't belong. i didn't realize how much of a jerk i was being (hey, she was entitled to her friends) until the new girl called me and asked if i was jealous of her. woah, that really hit me, and i 'let my friend go'. in high school, a close friend called my previous best friend 'popular', and i guess she achieved her goal, so good for her. but i was really hurt by her, and i try not to be clingy.
i do find that i am jealous of friends, from time to time. i do not like this about myself, but i do not know how to change it, to change myself. and so, i have these negative feelings, and then depression, and even if i try to like something about me, about my life sometimes i fail.
why do i have to be jealous?
Takahashi Old Town
4 hours ago
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You are super blogger. How do you keep up? Even when you say that you have been a "bad blogger". I don't have much to comment on the jeolousy issue- i think I just give up to easily.
The kids are looking so cute. You are such an awesome Mama and do so much with them.
We are 90% sure we will be coming out to Fukuoka early October. I told Masa that I want to go out with your family during that time if you guys are available. Anyways, will see ya sometime in the next few months.
I can relate on the jealousy issue... actually I have a huge regret from my first year in high school were I hurt a good friend for similar reasons in your situation.
Now I still get jealous of those who have ahem.. things I would like. I think its human nature!
Sarah just hit the nail on the head....human nature! The grass is always greener and all that.
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