the past weekend wasn't so great, if i'm being honest. we went to visit old friends, but i very definitely got the cold shoulder. the friends we stayed with were as friendly as always, and another with whom we had occasionally met was lovely. but two friends with whom i was once very close, now seem to freeze me out. they have become close friends themselves, and that's great, but now i feel so hurt. add to that losing a friend about a couple years ago, and not knowing why, and not having any friends here in munakata, makes me believe that i'm just not likable. that there's something about me that at first makes me a friend, but the subject of scorn later on. i don't wanna meet people now, i just wanna stay home and be a recluse. *sigh* what's wrong with me??